Luminous Twinklings

Dear Diary, Boy, oh boy did I have fun today!  My mom let me meet Patrick!  After I finished my chemistry midterm, she said she wanted to reward me....so I asked to see Patrick!  And she didn't say no!  I also said she could give me the phone Isabelle wanted to use (but was locked) so that I could give it to him to try to unlock because he is a technology genius.  Genius, I tell you! So.  After school, I waited for mom to bring me food...and I sat in the car while I waited for Patrick to get here.  My original plan was to wait in the library...but...oh wells.  I ate the buns and the delicious mango pudding tart....then I waited for him to come!  Every SUV that passed by made me nervous.... could that be him?  Could THAT be him?!  Ohmygosh, I think that's him!  Hide!

Dear Diary, Actually, wait....no.  Scratch that.  Should I address these "letters" to him instead? Let's try it. Dear Patrick, I had work experience today, so I thought it would be a good idea to try not checking Messenger again today.  Of course, you didn't know that, so if you try to message me....I'll have an excuse....

Dear Diary, .....it's been three days and I still haven't heard a single word from him. I couldn't sleep last night.  My heart ached so much.  I also had a stomachache, a strange kinda....also from his absence, maybe?  I kept thinking.....what if this really is the end? After all we've been through....this CAN'T be the end....right?

Dear...Entity. If you've somehow stumbled upon this blog and you know me.....GO AWAY! This is a diary! MY diary, to be precise. So go away.  Please and thank you. Now that we got that dealt with. I sometimes ask myself why I would choose to have an online BLOG diary instead of just...you know....writing in an actual notebook. But then after further pondering....I always come to the same conclusions: my hand gets lazy and I already have a bunp on my finger because of writing too much writing stationery doesn't always cooperate I could LOSE my writing stationery I have the option of pictures and gifs content is searchable there's something exciting about creating a new blog and publishing posts, even if no one will ever get to see them more reasons I can't think of right now But then....I inevitably remember the cons: someone I know could actually stumble upon this blog despite my efforts to keep it hidden (I think I'll set this blog as pri

Dear Diary, OH, the misery! Today has been a horrible day! I don't know why I'm so emotional today.  I've been singing Just Say You Won't Let Go  for quite some time now.   I even got inspired to try playing some of it on the piano.  Joyce Leung's cover is so beautiful.  I've never really been sure of the words before, but now that I've seen them...ohmygoodness...it's so beautiful.  It brought tears to my eyes instantly.

Dear Diary, Well, to be honest, I'm not sure what exactly I was expecting. It just...doesn't seem real right now.....he said he wants a break....but....for how long?! We didn't talk at all today. But he'll be back tomorrow...he has to.

Dear Diary, UGH.  It's happened again. I said something he didn't like. Is it wrong for me to get mad or something?! And things were going so well....